Tuesday, November 27, 2012

A Letter to My Little Girl

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My Little Girl,

It seemed just yesterday when you held my hand, lead me around the yard and showed me those pretty flowers. When you tripped and scraped your knee, and cried and called for me.
It seemed just a few hours ago, when you asked me to read you books til you fell asleep. When I was still the one you would call for when your mother isn't there. When you would actually treat me like I was there.

It seemed just yesterday when you said you didn't want me to leave you on your very first of school. When you wanted me accompany me to your classes, because you were afraid of being lonely. Time seemed to pass so... fast.

Now I see you in your high school uniform, I can't believe you're that very same girl I used to hold. I can't believe that you're that very same girl who used to ask for my companion and assistance. That you're that very same girl who used to play with dolls and toy horses.
Now it's as if you're slipping out of my hands, away from me. Instead of holding my hand, you hold that guy's hand. Instead of calling for me, you call your best-friend who lives miles away... and instead of asking for my companion, you now prefer going with your friends.

And you know what, it aches to see you distant yourself from me, as if I never meant anything to you. I try to give you everything that you ask for, to show you that I will still be the one that can give you the most, but that didn't help a bit.
It aches to see and hear how you would rather hand out with your friends on Friday and Saturday nights, while you and your mother sits alone at home, missing your presence, your laughs. Missing the times when you still ask for our help. Now it seems like you don't need anything from us.
It aches to know that you've grown. You're the same little girl I used to hold, but you wont hold me anymore. And I know, it's time to let you go. It's time to let you experience your own life, but I can't bear to see your fall and fail. I can't bear to see you fall in love with the wrong guy, and trusting him more than you would ever trust me. It aches to know you communicate with some guy I don't even know, and ignore me when you do.
I want my little girl back. I want my little girl to hold me like she used to, years ago. I wish I could bring those times back.

My Little Girl,

There's nothing more that I want than to see you smile and laugh. I've pictured the moment when you will be leaving town for college or walking down the aisle since years ago, me being that proud man to having such a beautiful, great daughter.
I never knew that it would hurt this bad, to see you actually leave me. I never had a single hint that it wouldn't be as great as I have expected. All I want is to have you here again, and be my little girl again. But I know that wont happen.

All I can say and hope now is that, whatever you do, whoever you choose, you wont forget about me and your mother. Wherever you go, I hope you will take us with your heart with you. I can't do anything to keep you from leaving. All that I can do is hope that you'll do fine and that you will keep smiling no matter what.


Love,
Your Dad.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

IDK

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I keep telling myself
That this feeling will go away
But no matter hard I insist
This feeling seems to stay

Because every time I look at you
Stupid butterflies erupt
My mind goes blank
And there's nothing I can do
To get rid of you

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Just One of My Poems

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We used to watch the sunset together
We used to play around with laughter
We said we'd be best mates til forever
 Whatever happens, whenever

Then we turned fifteen
The color yellow turns into green
I could only see you from the distance
I keep staring at you, I don't know why
And for the first time, I felt kind of shy

My friends started teasing me
Like, oh what could they be
Then they told you everything
Made me feel like a different being

You ignored me from then on
I couldn't figure out what was going on
I cried and cried but you didn't see
Yeah, nobody would see me

I still wished that you'd realized
You really got me hypnotized
 I stayed up every night
Praying so I could be your light ♥

Jealousy

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I see their figures entwine together
And they smile as if it will last forever
And I feel my brain taking over
Numbing my bones

And I feel my world start shaking
The sun darken and stopped shining
Then I stood there, shivering
I can't feel anything

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Hoped You Were Lying

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I drew the curtains, the sun starts to set
I feel the darkness creep into me
I feel so lonely once again, again, again

You say you don't remember
You say you have forgotten
You say you can't remember anything

Reff:
Big or small
Tough or not
Lies are still lies
But when you said you don't remember
I hoped you were lying

I play my music, memories came
Attacking me, turning me in
I feel uncontrolled, once again, again

You never looked back
You say past is the past
You left right there in the rain


Reff:

Big or small
Tough or not
Lies are still lies
But when you said you don't remember
I hoped you were lying

Thursday, February 2, 2012

I Used To (song)

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Watching time pass by
Doesn't make any difference now
It's been six years already
And you don't remember a thing

Reff:
I used to cry all night for you
I used to dream about you
But the last time I checked you never cared
So what should I do
I'm torn in two

Since the sun went down
My head feels being slammed to the ground
Long time no see
I don't know what we used to be

Reff:
I used to cry all night for you
I used to dream about you
But the last time I checked you never cared
So what should I do
I'm torn in two

Monday, December 5, 2011

Why (lyrics)

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Why can't I move on
Why can't I move on
Why am I still stuck in these conditions, situations, confusions
Why can't I just let go of everything easily
Why am I still waiting, for stupid undefined statements
Why am I being so like this

Reff:
I tell you
This is true
Why would I lie to you
 Tell me why
Why, why, why
Can't I let go of you
Like you let go of me that fast

Why am I still waiting
Why am I still waiting
Why am I still in the middle of lot-confused pressure, and tempers
Why do I still cry my tears away
Why am I still dreaming, wishing for impossible views
Why am I being so like this


Reff:
I tell you
This is true
Why would I lie to you
 Tell me why
Why, why, why
Can't I let go of you
Like you let go of me that fast

I tell you
This is true
Why would I lie to you
I'm not okay
I'm just insane
Like the way you used to drive me away


Reff:
I tell you
This is true
Why would I lie to you
 Tell me why
Why, why, why
Can't I let go of you
Like you let go of me that fast

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Can't Write Something New

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I live from paper
My life is written there like books
But if you take a look inside
You'll just find nothing other than old stories
Old quotations, old everything

Reff:
Can't write a new chapter
I keep turning back the pages
And write down everything, live on the past
While I'm sure you've written
More than a hundred pages
Without looking back, without me in them

Where are you now
The distant's been bothering me so much
If you just know
You'll see me struggling to live, it's so hard
To live the life without you

Reff:
Can't write a new chapter
I keep turning back the pages
And write down everything, live on the past
While I'm sure you've written
More than a hundred pages
Without looking back, without me in them

Surely you're alright now
No need to see me around
I'm not needed in your book

Reff:
Can't write a new chapter
I keep turning back the pages
And write down everything, live on the past
While I'm sure you've written
More than a hundred pages
Without looking back, without me in them

While I'm sure you've written
More than a thousand chapters
Without turning any back, just to see me

Saturday, November 26, 2011

My Mistakes (lyrics)

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I sat behind you at lunchtime and heard everything
You said you liked me well, I believed in it
You smiled and you made me fly
Like everything you said

But even though I know
You mean what you said
All I did was just turn away

Reff:
I burned every bridge you made
I realized it was a big mistake
'Cause now I'm missing you like crazy
Tell me how I can fix everything
'Cause now I left you overboard
And I can't go back home

I tried to find you through everything but I can't
I cried, I missed the times that were there
I forgot the day, the words
But I still feel the same way

But even though I know
You mean what you said
All I did was just turn away

Reff:
I burned every bridge you made
I realized it was a big mistake
'Cause now I'm missing you like crazy
Tell me how I can fix everything
'Cause now I left you overboard
And I can't go back home

My mistakes,

I burned every bridge you made
I realized it was a big mistake
'Cause now I'm missing you like crazy
Tell me how I can fix everything
'Cause now I left you overboard
And I can't go back home

Friday, November 25, 2011

Forgotten Girl (lyrics)

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Did you remember
Did you remember
What happened that time
Have you forgotten
Have you forgotten
About me

Did you replace me with someone new
I never did that with you
What's happening there at your place
Is it still like before

Reff:
Am I just a forgotten girl in your past
I know we just could never last
Am I just a forgotten memory left behind
Because those moments had been eaten by time

I wanna know, how do you do
Have you changed, or are you the same
The same angel I used to know
With the same shine that I used to see in your eyes

Reff:
Am I just a forgotten girl in your past
I know we just could never last
Am I just a forgotten memory left behind
Because those moments had been eaten by time

Reff 2:
Am I just a forgotten girl, please deny
I want to be someone you're remember by
A little breeze, a little shine of the light
Because I still miss you by now

Bridge:

Can you hear my thoughts
Can you feel my tears rolling down my face
Did you miss me, like I'm missing you now
Please do, please do...just do



Reff:
Am I just a forgotten girl in your past
I know we just could never last
Am I just a forgotten memory left behind
Because those moments had been eaten by time

I know
I am a forgotten in your past
And I knew we could never last
I am a forgotten memory left behind
Eaten by time

Monday, November 14, 2011

Imperfect

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I'm a just a normal girl
With flaws, mistakes... just like you
I read, I write, I sing
Everything you can think of
I talk, I rant, I scream
I have problems like everyone else
I cry, I weep, I wail
But don't every girl do that

Reff:
I'm imperfect, just like you
I'm not perfect, just like you
I do mistakes, you do mistakes, they do mistakes
Everyone does, everyone does
Perfectly imperfect

You're just a normal person
With flaws, mistakes... just like me
You trip, you fall, you take the wrong turns
Everything I can think of
You say, I'm weak, I'm weird
But I'm just limited edition
You lie, you fib, I say
But it's up to you to prove that

Reff:
I'm imperfect, just like you
I'm not perfect, just like you
I do mistakes, you do mistakes, they do mistakes
Everyone does, everyone does
Perfectly imperfect

Tell me that I'm right
'Cause I know I am
I am just human, and you know that
Don't expect great things from me
'Cause I take the wrong turns like you do
I say harsh things at some points
I do bad stuff when I'm mad
Just like everyone else

Reff:
I'm imperfect, just like you
I'm not perfect, just like you
I do mistakes, you do mistakes, they do mistakes
Everyone does, everyone does
Perfectly imperfect
Imperfect, yeah
Imperfect, like you
Like you, imperfect

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Rush

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I am all confused
With you
Suddenly you went
Running through my mind
And I remember what happened last year
Bitter sweet, everything
And all I know now

Reff:
Everything is rushing back
Playing back to days of time
When I was trying to make you see
Everything that we could be
Rushing back, rushing back

I don't know
What's happening now
'Cause I have forgotten 'bout you
And it's like you're after me now
Weird strange, impossible
But also undeniable

Reff:
Everything is rushing back
Playing back to days of time
When I was trying to make you see
Everything that we could be
Rushing back, rushing back

It's a rush
Rushing back
To the time months ago
But now it's turned around


Reff:
Everything is rushing back
Playing back to days of time
When I was trying to make you see
Everything that we could be
Rushing back, rushing back

Saturday, November 12, 2011

As Easy as it Sounds (lyrics)

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I wake up
Look up my phone
There's a message that says
You're in deep trouble
And I found out that you're messed up
Because of the things I wrote yesterday

Reff:
Stop the playing backs
No need to remind me
'Cause I still remember every single thing
Is it wrong to tell you
If you don't want to be ruined
Do the right things
As easy as it sounds

Ask me why
I wrote those everything
But you didn't so I'll stay quiet
I don't care
What you think 'cause I'm right all along
And you keep saying I'm not

Reff:
Stop the playing backs
No need to remind me
'Cause I still remember every single thing
Is it wrong to tell you
If you don't want to be ruined
Do the right things
As easy as it sounds

If you don't want me to write bad things about you
Then don't do bad things to me
As easy as it sounds

Reff:
Stop the playing backs
No need to remind me
'Cause I still remember every single thing
Is it wrong to tell you
If you don't want to be ruined
Do the right things
As easy as it sounds

Friday, November 11, 2011

You Wont Forget

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Did you even think you had the right
To say those things to me
Did you even think you had the right
To shout in my face and say
I shouldn't be here right now
I should go home, did you think so

As if I'm wrong all along
Act like you don't care at all
Well you'll be regretting

Reff:
'Cause I'll make you remember
What happened this November
I'll shout into the speakers
And weave your every wishes
Into your worst nightmare

I remember you never turned on the light
When everything went dark
Left me and my friend alone and night
With nothing to hold tight
You think we're wasting time
And we're just making rhymes

As if I'm wrong all along
Act like you don't care at all
Well you'll be regretting


Reff:
'Cause I'll make you remember
What happened this November
I'll shout into the speakers
And weave your every wishes
Into your worst nightmare

So I'm asking now
Who walked the four miles
Who blew out the lights
And who made everything right?

Reff:
'Cause I'll make you remember
What happened this November
I'll shout into the speakers
And weave your every wishes
Into your worst nightmare

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Remember Where You Came From

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You get what you get and go away with it
Step away from who gave it to you
Smile and laugh at the ones who praise you
Don't you even remember
Where you came from, where you were before

Reff:
There you go now
Running around in circles
Confused where to head
Don't know where to go
Well you can't blame me now
That's what you get for
Forgetting where you came from

You take everything you want and laugh away
And you made everything ran out of place
Took credit for what you never deserved
It was for me, for me
Look now, you don't even remember where you were

Reff:
You're on your own now
See that you've lost your way
Don't know which is red
Don't know which blue
Well I'm not helping you now
That's what you get for
Forgetting where you came from

I'm not helping you out now
See whether you can live on your own
Remember where you came from

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

No Need to Pretend

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Girl, Little Girl
Girl, Little Girl
Wipe your tears
Everything's gonna be okay
Nothing will go on forever
I know you've been heartbroken
Someone's shattered your pretty heart
That someone didn't make any effort to repair it
But don't worry, everything's gonna be okay

Reff:
No need to pretend you don't care
No need to pretend there was nothing between you two
No need to pretend you never felt this way
'Cause doing so you're just gonna hurt yourself
Open your eyes and realize
The sky have many stars above

Girl, Little Girl
Girl, Little Girl
Stand and see
Was your times worth it
Wasted on someone who never cared?
I know you can't fix your heart now
Only time can figure it out
But meanwhile, try to smile and learn that
Sometimes, the fact that he's gone is the best for you



Reff:
No need to pretend you don't care
No need to pretend there was nothing between you two
No need to pretend you never felt this way
'Cause doing so you're just gonna hurt yourself
Open your eyes and realize
The sky have many stars above

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Perfectly

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I thought I made it clear
That everything I used to had
Had perfectly disappear

I searched for new things
Just to make you see
That I can do better than then
But all I got was nothing
Perfectly, nothing

I asked for help
Even when I knew I hate asking
I asked for directions
Just to make sure I went the right way
And all I got, again, was
Perfectly, lost in my way

Perfectly, everything was perfect
For the ones who wanted to deceive me
It was a perfect plan, a perfect plot
Perfectly, because now I don't know where to go

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Why

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In the back of my mind
There are so many footprints
Carved woods, unsaid words
And I can't understand why


What is so wrong with me
Am I not good enough
Am I not what you want
Am I just a friend-zoned girl

You made my heart crack inside
Can't you see you're on my mind
Wont you understand that since
My feelings are so messed up
I can't figure a title for this song


Even though time has passed
I haven't forgotten any word you've said
Quiet whispers, rough yells
And I can't figure out why


What is so wrong with me
Am I not good enough
Am I not what you want
Am I just a friend-zoned girl

You made my heart crack inside
Can't you see you're on my mind
Wont you understand that since
My feelings are so messed up
I can't figure a title for this song


Please listen and help me
Un-mix an un-mess my feelings
So I can figure something to say
To complete this song


What is so wrong with me
Am I not good enough
Am I not what you want
Am I just a friend-zoned girl

You made my heart crack inside
Can't you see you're on my mind
Wont you understand that since
My feelings are so messed up
I can't figure a title for this song
A title for this song

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Your So-Called Servants

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I wanna go home
Leave you alone
I wanna go home
Show you that
I'm not the person
You can boss around


I may not be strong like the one you hoped I am
I'm not the pretty one that you always befriend
And I'm not gonna be the one that'll bring your orders like something

You go around giving orders
Like we're your damn so-called servants
You tell em what to do but I'll let you know
I'll never be what you call as
'Your damn so-called servants'

I wont even give in so that you'll make me bow down to you
I don't wanna be the one that has to follow you everywhere
And I'll never be the one that has to come whenever you call, like something, something

You go around giving orders
Like we're your damn so-called servants
You tell em what to do but I'll let you know
I'll never be what you call as
'Your damn so-called servants'

So let it all out
Scream all you want
Cuss and call me anything
But don't hope I'll ever give in
'Cause I wont, never will be

You go around giving orders
Like we're your damn so-called servants
You tell em what to do but I'll let you know
I'll never be what you call as
'Your damn so-called servants'

I wanna go home
Leave you alone
I wanna go home
Show you that
I'm not the person
You can boss around

Monday, September 5, 2011

Together Til the End (song)

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(This is a song I made from my friend's perspective, not mine)


Doesn't it sound like people are disapproving
Like they have nothing else to do
They know between us there's something
And their attitude towards me are just so cold

I know things will change
When we're strong enough to bear it
When we're ready enough to see it
When things are already on rough side
But just for now
You and I will be together til the end

Maybe I'm just being paranoid
That you're acting like you don't care
But I'm trying to believe in
Whatever build us together will last forever

I know things will change
When we're strong enough to bear it
When we're ready enough to see it
When things are already on rough side
But just for now
You and I will be together til the end

Maybe things don't make sense now
But I'm sure you'll make it around
It's starting to get better
We'll think about change later

I know things will change
When we're strong enough to bear it
When we're ready enough to see it
When things are already on rough side
But just for now
You and I will be together til the end
The end

Saturday, September 3, 2011

When I Was Little

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When I was little everything seems perfect
The flowers smiled at me
Everyone believed in what I said

Now I can see
Nothing's perfect
Some flowers turned their back on me
And there's nobody I can trust

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Alone

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I feel so alone
In this so big world
And there's no one I can turn to
'Cause there was this girl
Who made all my friends leave me
Shatter me to bits and pieces

Didn't know what went on
What and who stayed
To keep on befriending me 'cause
Now I'm all alone

Reff:
Sitting at the corner of the room
Looking down at a scrap of paper
And I write
I'm all alone

Crying and weeping over this
Don't want to talk to anyone
And I whispered
I'm all alone

And now I'm crying
Everyone just left me out
And there's no where I can go to
'Cause all my friends
Just swallowed those lies, fake friends
Shatter me to bits and pieces

Never knew what's going on
Why and when it started
To make me feel just all bad, 'cause
Now I'm all alone

Reff:
Sitting at the corner of the room
Looking down at a scrap of paper
And I write
I'm all alone

Crying and weeping over this
Don't want to talk to anyone
And I whispered
I'm all alone

Doesn't it seems
I've really got no friends
But I don't care
Though I know
I'm all alone now

Reff:
Sitting at the corner of the room
Looking down at a scrap of paper
And I write
I'm all alone

Crying and weeping over this
Don't want to talk to anyone
And I whispered
I'm all alone
Alone



Friday, July 29, 2011

There's a Way

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Is there something you want to hide
Is there truth that you'd deny
Because I see it in your eyes
Through all this you'd rather lie

When all the lights are put out
You try to find, some way out
I know you're scared, like the way I am
But I know, we'll find a way

Reff:
It's life, there's always a way
Even though, we don't know where the truth lays
But don't be scared, just follow the rays
Of sunlight, it'll take you home

There are things that you never know
Like where the magpies sing with the crows
It seems so impossible but it'll show
One day you'll see, just be sure

You're believing in the lies, I see
Don't be scared, it's so normal to me
When the truth is so hard to believe
Sometimes we say how can this be

Reff:
It's life, there's always a way
Even though, we don't know where the truth lays
But don't be scared, just follow the rays
Of sunlight, it'll take you home



You're believing in the lies, I see
Don't be scared, it's so normal to me
When the truth is so hard to believe
Sometimes we say how can this be

Reff:
It's life, there's always a way
Even though, we don't know where the truth lays
But don't be scared, just follow the rays
Of sunlight, it'll take you home
Take you home

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Lost in My Head

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Seems like you forgot everything
Seems like you already moved on
But I just didn't
I'm still here, lost in my head
Lost, lost, lost in everything that you ever said

Maybe things don't always go
The way we wanted them to
Maybe I just got too far
But you know that I was really hoping
And even though now you've moved on
You should know that I'm still clinging onto every hope

 Reff:
I'm so lost in my head
Trapped in memories
Don't know where to head
It's stressing me out, out, out

I'm lost in all the things
You ever said to me
I've been always remembering
And it's stressing me out, out, out

Looks like it's all ending
Looks like I've got no more hope
And I'll cry again
'Cause I'm still lost in the memories
Lost, lost, lost in everything that you ever said

Maybe I can't always get
What I've been asking for
Maybe it's time to end it
But I just can't let go of it like you can
And even though now you've moved on
You should know that I'm still clinging onto every hope

 Reff:
I'm so lost in my head
Trapped in memories
Don't know where to head
It's stressing me out, out, out

I'm lost in all the things
You ever said to me
I've been always remembering
And it's stressing me out, out, out


Bridge:
And now I guess it's time to start a new page
But right now I just haven't figured out
How to start all over again

I've been so lost in my head like forever
And all I can do now is cry out
Why can't it be

 Reff:
I'm so lost in my head
Trapped in memories
Don't know where to head
It's stressing me out, out, out

I'm lost in all the things
You ever said to me
I've been always remembering
And it's stressing me out, out, out

Simple

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I'm just a kid, a pre-teen
In this big, big world
At times I am lost, I don't know where to head
I've got so many troubles, so many problems that I have to solve

And they say that my life is so complicated
So hard, so stressful
But they never asked me
They never know that to me

Reff:
It's so simple
So simple
So simple, so simple
I don't to think too hard about it
'Cause I'm already used to it
It's so simple, so simple

I am alive, so alive
Trying to find way
To get out of these dead ends, I'm so alone
In front there's a wall, behind it's closed, and the sides are thorns, I can't go

And they say that my life is so complicated
So hard, so stressful
But they never asked me
They never know that to me

Reff:
It's so simple
So simple
So simple, so simple
I don't to think too hard about it
'Cause I'm already used to it
It's so simple, so simple

Friday, July 15, 2011

I Just Lost a Friend

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I just lost a friend
I never knew this would happen to me
Oh, how could this be
How could I never see
I just left you without thinking
Never thought fate can interfere with
The friendship we made
I didn't believe the news
I thought it was fake


Reff:
I searched, I searched
Everywhere for you
I called, I called
I ran through the woods
Crying for you, but you never came back
I crossed the creek to our world we made
But I see no sign of you
I just lost a friend


I just want you to know
How much you mean to my whole life
When I hop off the bus
I waited for you
But you never got off, I can't believe it
I watched the bus go
Leaving me all alone again
You're gone forever
I just can't believe it


Reff:
I searched, I searched
Everywhere for you
I called, I called
I ran through the woods
Crying for you, but you never came back
I crossed the creek to our world we made
But I see no sign of you
I just lost a friend


Bridge:
I can never let go
Of the memories
Of the two of us
I wont even let go
Of the words you ever said to me

Every time I close my eyes
I promise myself
Your words, your spirit
Will always be in my heart
Forever


Reff:
I searched, I searched
Everywhere for you
I called, I called
I ran through the woods
Crying for you, but you never came back
I crossed the creek to our world we made
But I see no sign of you
I just lost a friend



Monday, July 11, 2011

You Don't Believe Me (song)

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I told you
I may not make it
Didn't I say before today I'm dying
Haven't I said my breath is shorter than usual
But you don't believe me, you though I lied

Chorus:
But it's true I do
Feel this way, death too
Creeping to me every night
Tell me to be ready for the day I would leave
You don't believe me, you don't believe me

I tried to
Tell you this is real
But every time I try you deny everything
Pretend all the signs, the words I say are nothing
You say I'm okay, I'm just lying

Chorus:
But it's true I do
Feel this way, death too
Creeping to me every night
Tell me to be ready for the day I would leave
You don't believe me, you don't believe me

Bridge:
You don't believe me til I drop sick
But this time I'll die and
You will be so sorry

Chorus:
But it's true I do
Feel this way, death too
Creeping to me every night
Tell me to be ready for the day I would leave
You don't believe me, you don't believe me
You don't believe me, you don't believe me
You don't believe me

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Lost You

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I can't see  anything
Anything that's around me
Seems like a fog, like I'm all blind all over
Without you near me, I'm not me
Looks like I've become all weak

Reff:
Again and again
I try to accept that love don't last forever
Again and again
I searched everywhere but there's no sign of you
Seems like I lost you

Walking down the street
Even though I've brought my lights
I can't see you around, can't see anything
Are you lost out there, or is it me
Maybe I've lost myself

Reff:
Again and again
I try to accept that love don't last forever
Again and again
I searched everywhere but there's no sign of you
Seems like I lost you

Bridge:
Around and around I go
Searching for you but you never know
I've searched all high and low
But everywhere it says no

Reff:
Again and again
I try to accept that love don't last forever
Again and again
I searched everywhere but there's no sign of you
Seems like I lost you
Again and again
I try to accept that love don't last forever
Again and again
I searched everywhere but there's no sign of you
Seems like I lost you
Lost you

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Birthday

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Aaaw-a-a-awwwh
Aaaw-a-a-a-aaawwwwh


Wake up early in the morning and look at the calender
You knew that hey, it is your birthday
In your head you're like, "Yeah it is today"
Walk around the house with a funny swagger
Never knew that since this day
You're gonna change

Don't you realize you're getting older
You're no way gonna get back when you were smaller
Responsibility now lay upon your shoulders
Your problems aren't gonna get any better

Reff:
Oh, birthday
It's not about the presents that you get
It's not about the cheer from your friends
Oh, birthday
It's not about the party you throw
It's not about the money and things you waste


Go about the school and say that it's your birthday
They give you loads of presents and say it's your lucky day
You throw a party and cheer about it all week
Fussing if someone gave you the things you hate
And forget to say thanks when they give you a surprise

Don't you realize you're getting older
You're no way gonna get back when you were smaller
Responsibility now lay upon your shoulders
Your problems aren't gonna get any better


Reff:
Oh, birthday
It's not about the presents that you get
It's not about the cheer from your friends
Oh, birthday
It's not about the party you throw
It's not about the money and things you waste

Bridge:
Let me tell you
Maybe it is a special day
But it's not like your perfect one
Think about the childhood you're leaving
That your parents are getting older too
That one day you're never gonna see them again
If you ask me
I don't want to have my birthday



Don't you realize you're getting older
You're no way gonna get back when you were smaller
Responsibility now lay upon your shoulders
Your problems aren't gonna get any better


Reff:
Oh, birthday
It's not about the presents that you get
It's not about the cheer from your friends
Oh, birthday
It's not about the party you throw
It's not about the money and things you waste

Yeah it's your birthday

Friday, June 10, 2011

Maybe it's True

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If I tell you I do
Will you say that you do too
And you made me run outta clues
And maybe it is true
That I am in love with you


Reff:
Maybe it's true
That I do need you
And maybe it is true
That I'm falling for you
Maybe it's true
That I want you
Maybe I love you


If I tell you I love you
Would you say, why thank you
Seriously, I don't know what to do
Well maybe it is true
That I'm in love with you

Reff:
Maybe it's true
That I do need you
And maybe it is true
That I'm falling for you
Maybe it's true
That I want you
Maybe I love you

Bridge:
Maybe it's true
That I am falling for you
Maybe, maybe it is true
That I am in love with you
I think, I think it's true
I love you


Reff:
Maybe it's true
That I do need you
And maybe it is true
That I'm falling for you
Maybe it's true
That I want you
Maybe I love you

Monday, June 6, 2011

I Just Wanna Know

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I just wanna know
What you will say
When I tell you what's in me
I wanna let you know
That my heart keeps burning
Whenever I see you with her

Reff:
Is it gonna end
Like I wished it would
Is it gonna be
Like what I've dreamed for
All the dreams and wishes
Still stuck in my head
I just have to accept
What you will say

I've said what's in here
All the feelings in me
That's actually meant for you
So come on and say
Whether you feel the same way
And if it isn't it's okay

Reff:
Is it gonna end
Like I wished it would
Is it gonna be
Like what I've dreamed for
All the dreams and wishes
Still stuck in my head
I just have to accept
What you will say

Bridge:
I'll just have to listen
What you will say next
I'll just keep my heart guarded
Not gonna let it get hurt

Reff:
Is it gonna end
Like I wished it would
Is it gonna be
Like what I've dreamed for
All the dreams and wishes
Still stuck in my head
I just have to accept
What you will say

Friday, May 27, 2011

My Group on GR

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Can't Move On

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I know life keeps on going
Even we can't keep it from moving
There's no way these memories are leaving
Everything reminds me, and I'm crying
Nothing can stop me remembering
How it was before, now it's changing

Every time I start a new page
The wind blows and take me back
To the old ones, reminding me
Of everything, reminding me
That things don't last long
Every time I start a new page
I turn it back, I can't start it
I look back, never going to leave it

Now I'm here standing, just waiting
If things are going to go back
I'll be there, I'll let you know
I wont even forget, never
What it was like before
I'm just waiting, never leaving

Every time I start a new page
The wind blows and take me back
To the old ones, reminding me
Of everything, reminding me
That things don't last long
Every time I start a new page
I turn it back, I can't start it
I look back, never going to leave it

I'm not leaving
I'm just staying
Til it comes back,
I'll never stop saying
I can't move on
Whatever happens
I'll keep on waiting

Every time I start a new page
The wind blows and take me back
To the old ones, reminding me
Of everything, reminding me
That things don't last long
Every time I start a new page
I turn it back, I can't start it
I look back, never going to leave it

Saturday, May 21, 2011

My Song

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I'm writing a song
That can last so long
And in this one
Nothing is going to be wrong
Never going to end, never ever
It's a mad song, yeah
It's my song

This is my song
I can shout at you whenever
Slap you many times, however
And it'll last forever
And its end is never coming closer
'Cause it's my song

Cry and rant like crazy
Well yeah, it's me
And you're going to see
How harsh this is going to be
'Cause it's my song
So come on sing along!

This is my song
I can shout at you whenever
Slap you many times, however
And it'll last forever
And its end is never coming closer
'Cause it's my song
My song...

Monday, May 16, 2011

I Believe One Day (song)

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You pushed me hard on the ground
Told me I wasn't worth it and
Kicked me so hard I couldn't breathe
Told me I would never fly, yeah
Told me I would never touch the sky
But

Reff:
I believe one day I wont be on the ground
I believe one day I would fly somehow
I believe one day you wouldn't knock me down
I believe one day things would be turned around
I believe one day I would fly so high
I believe one day I would touch the sky
I believe one day things wouldn't be so hard
I believe one day I would reach the stars

Told me I shouldn't live, that's what you said
Pointed out my flaws to everyone that's there
Make me cry and cry but you never mind
At least you don't see me around
You don't care, I know

Reff:
I believe one day I wont be on the ground
I believe one day I would fly somehow
I believe one day you wouldn't knock me down
I believe one day things would be turned around
I believe one day I would fly so high
I believe one day I would touch the sky
I believe one day things wouldn't be so hard
I believe one day I would reach the stars

Just see, yeah
I'm gonna knock you down someday
With all the stars I got
I'm gonna make you cry, just see
That's what you'll get for hurting me

Reff:
I believe one day I wont be on the ground
I believe one day I would fly somehow
I believe one day you wouldn't knock me down
I believe one day things would be turned around
I believe one day I would fly so high
I believe one day I would touch the sky
I believe one day things wouldn't be so hard
I believe one day I would reach the stars
(See me reach the stars)
(See me touch the sky)
(See that I would fly, fly, fly)

Friday, May 13, 2011

Don't Want to Tell You

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This heart is bleeding
Blood dripping like drizzling
The pain is piercing
Whenever I see you and her talking
I know it's just a normal thing
But I can't stand this feeling
And though my heart is hurting

I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you walk by
I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you talk
I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you called
I know my heart is burning
But I don't want to tell you

So today I walked the way home, alone
It's getting dark but I'm still miles away
It's getting boring but what can I do
Then I saw you
This pain erupts again, but I saw you're alone
My heart tells me to say it, say everything
My instincts urged me to speak up


But I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you walk by
I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you talk
I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you called
I know my heart is burning
But I don't want to tell you

I'm keeping this secret till it's over
I'm keeping my lips sealed until it's easier
I don't want to tell you
I don't want to tell you how I feel
But my heart is burning, bleeding, hurting
I should tell you, I should
But I'm staying quiet until it's over, easier


I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you walk by
I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you talk
I don't want to tell you
How I feel when you called
I know my heart is burning
But I don't want to tell you

Thursday, May 12, 2011

The Thing I'm Terrified of

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I was just trying to forget my past
About him, them, everything
And then you came by
And I have a feeling
This old horrible thing would come again
The thing I am mostly terrified of
Love, it's love

Makes my mind blank
Makes my heart sink
Makes me look dumb
It's so scary, so terrifying
And it's coming back again

You walk by
I take a breath
See you with other girls
And I cried to bits
You go away
And I want to call you
I'm afraid this whole thing would come again
The most terrifying thing in my life
Love, it's love

Makes my mind blank
Makes my heart sink
Makes me look dumb
It's so scary, so terrifying
And it's coming back again

I'm trying to shake it off
After all, I don't know you
But my heart keeps on saying
He's the one, he's the one
The thing I'm terrified of
Love, it's love

Makes my mind blank
Makes my heart sink
Makes me look dumb
It's so scary, so terrifying
And it's coming again
My mind is already blank
My heart has already sunk
And I look so dumb
I'm so scared, it's terrifying
Love, it's love

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Leave Me Alone

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Another knock, knock, knock on my door
Another tap, tap, tap on the floor
And a hey, hey, hey calling out
And a voice, "can I come in?"
"Whatcha doing?"
I'm getting so annoyed
So why can't you stop

I'm a thirteen year old
Don't knock on my door
Please stop interrogating me
And

Leave me alone
Leave me alone
I don't want to be watched
Every time I go out
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
I'm growing up
Leave me alone

Another ring, ring, ring on my phone
Another beep, beep, beep, a message
Another tick, tick, tick, oh the time
It's getting late to you
And I gotta go home right now
With you straining my schedules
How can I live (?)

I'm a thirteen year old
Don't knock on my door
Please stop interrogating me
And

Leave me alone
Leave me alone
I don't want to be watched
Every time I go out
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
I'm growing up
Leave me alone

Gotta back off sometimes
Give me some space
I'm not a little girl anymore
Stay back, stay back
I want to be alone

Leave me alone
Leave me alone
I don't want to be watched
Every time I go out
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
I'm growing up
Leave me alone

I wanna be alone (alone, alone)
Leave me alone
(Leave me, leave me) alone
Leave me, leave me (alone)
(Alone, alone, alone)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, alone, alone, alone)

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Not Going Anywhere

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Don't you remember the times
When we were friends
And I thought we can be more
Oh, how wrong of me
Because after everything
You turned your back on me
Took a girl, ran away

Reff: 
I'm crying myself away
How could you run away
I haven't told you yet
How much you mean to me
So if you're coming back
Let me know
Because I'm not going anywhere

Everything needs patience
But it's hurting to see you and her
It's been quite too much for me
And I can't take it any longer
But I want to wait
For you to end it, yeah
Because there's no other like you

Reff:
I'm crying myself away
How could you run away
I haven't told you yet
How much you mean to me
So if you're coming back
Let me know
Because I'm not going anywhere
I'm not going anywhere

Bridge:
So when you come back
Let me know, let me know
I'm not going anywhere
I'll be right here, right here
For you, waiting for you
I'm not going anywhere

Reff:
I'm crying myself away
How could you run away
I haven't told you yet
How much you mean to me
So if you're coming back
Let me know
Because I'm not going anywhere

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Heartbreak

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It wasn't the first time I heard
About you and her
But still my ears
Are pounding whenever
I hear it...once again

I've been waiting for years
But I never got what I want
Is it just me
Or am I really having a heartbreak ?

It's not that I'm pushing everything
It's just that I can't stand
I love you and you love her
Why can't it just be me
Or nobody at all ?
It's not that I'm too selfish
It's just that I cry whenever I hear
You and her around the place
Really, this is a heartbreak

It's so strange
Before this I never felt anything so hurting
I never felt what it's like to be like this
Before this I never cared
About whoever is loving who
But now my heart is piercing
Just hearing you and her
I guess it's just a heart break, but

It's not that I'm pushing everythingIt's just that I can't stand
I love you and you love her
Why can't it just be me
Or nobody at all ?
It's not that I'm too selfish
It's just that I cry whenever I hear
You and her around the place
Really, this is a heartbreak

I'm having a heartbreak
And it's so hurting me like crazy
Whenever I hear about you
I remember her
And things crash down to the ground
I wanna pick them up, but I can't
My hands are clutching my bleeding heart
Too scared it will fall out of place
Just because of a heartbreak, heartbreak
I'm having a heartbreak
A heart break, a heartbreak
Yeah, a heartbreak

It's not that I'm pushing everything It's just that I can't stand
I love you and you love her
Why can't it just be me
Or nobody at all ?
It's not that I'm too selfish
It's just that I cry whenever I hear
You and her around the place
Really, this is a heartbreak
Yeah it's a heartbreak

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Will There be Another Day

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I hear the time ticking by
Second by second, it becomes faster
And I don't know why my heart feels so scared
What's going to happen next?
What will happen?
I'd never know, I know
But it's just that something feels quite wrong in here
And the bad thing is, it's a strong feeling

Will there be another day
Will there be a tomorrow
Will I still see sunlight the next day
Will I still be standing where I am now, tomorrow
I don't know, but I got a strong feeling down here
I wont be here anymore

I've got tests tomorrow
Still much time to go
But I'm not quite sure
As my heart says I know, I know
I know that I wont be here standing anymore
I don't know what's going to happen
But I'm quite sure


Will there be another day
Will there be a tomorrow
Will I still see sunlight the next day
Will I still be standing where I am now, tomorrow
I don't know, but I got a strong feeling down here
I wont be here anymore
I wont be here anymore

Who Cares

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When light defeats the night
And everything becomes so bright
You say everything is right
And I should just get up
Start a new life
But who cares

Who cares, nobody
My life isn't going to shine anymore
Just forget it
Who cares about me, nobody
So I wont pick up myself like what you said
Because who cares

The rain starts to pour
And there's no way I'd get home dry
You hand me something to cover myself
But who cares
Who cares if I get home wet or dry, nobody
Who cares the heck about me, nobody
So I'll just walk the way home through the rain
Who cares

Who cares, nobody
My life isn't going to shine anymore
Just forget it
Who cares about me, nobody
So I wont pick up myself like what you said
Because who cares

What ever happens to me
Don't try to say anything
Just leave it the way it is
Because who cares
Who cares, who cares
About me...
Who cares about me

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

I Don't Care Anymore

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Never mind what we've been through
Never mind what I'm up to
Never mind what it is now
'Cause I don't care anymore

Reff:
Go on, go on
Turn your back on me now
Go on, go on
Step into the cold night
Go on, go on
Just walk out the door, yeah
'Cause I don't care anymore

Don't say anything now
Don't even try to talk to me
I don't wanna hear you
And I don't care anymore

Reff:
Go on, go on
Turn your back on me now
Go on, go on
Step into the cold night
Go on, go on
Just walk out the door, yeah
'Cause I don't care anymore

(Bridge)
Go on...yeah
Don't look at me
Just turn around, walk away
Shut the door behind you
And don't come back
I wont call you, I wont miss you
'Cause I don't care anymore
I don't care

Reff:
Go on, go on
Turn your back on me now
Go on, go on
Step into the cold night
Go on, go on
Just walk out the door, yeah
'Cause I don't care anymore

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Stay

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Don't you remember what we were before
Friends, if I'm not mistaken
Our fight last night
Wasn't that much bright
I saw you leaving
And

Reff:
There's nothing I can say
To make you stay
There's nothing we can play
To shine up our day
And here on the grass I lay
Knowing you're not gonna stay anymore

I'm so sorry
It wasn't much of my fault
But still, I don't wanna lose you
Stay, please stay
'Cause every night I pray
For you to come back and stay

Reff:
There's nothing I can say
To make you stay
There's nothing we can play
To shine up our day
And here on the grass I lay
Knowing you're not gonna stay anymore

Bridge:
Stay, stay, just come back and stay
Play, play, lets go out and play
Play, and make our day
Stay, stay

Reff:
There's nothing I can say
To make you stay
There's nothing we can play
To shine up our day
And here on the grass I lay
Knowing you're not gonna stay anymore

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Other Side of the World

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Now since I saw you
I dreamed way too far every night
Very funny, very funny
Very weird you know
And every time I fly a little to high
I always remind myself,
Saying to myself,

You live on the other side of the world
So far, why am I dreaming?
You live on the other side of the world
You don't even know I exist
So why am I dreaming way too high?
Since you live on the other side of the world
Why do I keep wanting to know everything about you
Hey, you live on the other side of the world

Every time I think about you
I wonder whether you're thinking about me
I know it sounds ridiculous, yeah
But things are always weird, so yeah
And every time I hope on you too high
I remind myself
I say to myself

You live on the other side of the world
So far, why am I dreaming?
You live on the other side of the world
You don't even know I exist
So why am I dreaming way too high?
Since you live on the other side of the world
Why do I keep wanting to know everything about you
Hey, you live on the other side of the world

Hey, hey
You live on the other side of the world
The other side of the world yeah
Hey, you live on the other side of the world, don't you
You know I wanna see you
But you live on the other side of the world
Other side of the world
My hopes are high, because of you I fly
But I can only cry
'Cause you live on the other side of the world

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Weird

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Never get to the point, all of you
Never do something new, don't you
Make me cry, isn't that all you do ?
Like there's nothing else to do
I'd rather you flush me down the loo
Instead of lying to me about the beautiful dew

You're weird, take that
Tell me to go with all of you
Tell me to don't stay alone
But then you ignore me
As if til I now I didn't see
All those stuff you said to me
Isn't gonna help me be what I wanna be

Stop those stuff you use to say
Or else I wont be here anymore to stay
Weird, all of you

Let Me Go

2 comments
You see me jumping to the music
Singing along to it
You see me online
Chatting with friends abroad
You think I'm happy
You're so so wrong
There's one thing I want to do
And that's saying

Let me go
Set me free
I'm no more a little girl
Just let me go, let me go
Accept I've grown, you know
I'm thirteen, one year to go
And I'll be fourteen
But why are you still holding me?

I wanna grow up, can't you see
I really wanna be like them
I don't want to be held, Dad
Just let me go
You know til now
I'm still saying those words out loud


Let me go
Set me free
I'm no more a little girl
Just let me go, let me go
Accept I've grown, you know
I'm thirteen, one year to go
And I'll be fourteen
But why are you still holding me?

Let-me-go -oh
Let-me-go -ohhh...
Set-me-free -please
Set-me-free
O-o-uh pleeease...
Let-me-go... let-meeeee-go ohhh...
Set me free...
I just wanna be somebody ...

Jealous of Me?

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The news spread
Everyone knows about it
Got the news on the wall
With that stupid photo of mine there too
Holding that trophy I got
And everyone was like crazy
Shaking my hands all day long
And saying how they want to me

You jealous of me?
Forget about it
I don't have anything really
Just look at yourself
You got everything you want
You're free to be what you want to be
And now would you look at me
I almost have nothing I want
But yes, I do have fame
But that's stupid
You jealous of me?

Got to be Master of Ceremony every event
Not that I hate that but yeah
Everyone says I'm so lucky like hell
Can't you see
I just wanna be me, be free
But people still say they're jealous of me
Stop saying I'm lucky
Stop saying you wanna be me
I'm just gonna say

You jealous of me?
Forget about it
I don't have anything really
Just look at yourself
You got everything you want
You're free to be what you want to be
And now would you look at me
I almost have nothing I want
But yes, I do have fame
But that's stupid
You jealous of me?

 Cut it out, I'm crying here
You're jealous of me?
You wanna be me?
Stop making me laugh
Really, you wanna be me
If you're me, I'll tell you
Don't hope you'd be free
Don't make me laugh
You're jealous of me?

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Mom, Dad

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They've got all these cages around me
Prevent me to be what I want to be
Never let me go too far
Never let me know too much
Never let me see the world
Locked my doors to the open air
And I want to say

Mom, Dad
Leave me alone
Set me free
Let me be what I want to be
Let me see what I want to see
Let me reach the stars
Remove these cages
I want to see the world

I'm thirteen now
And I feel left behind
Everyone is flying
And I'm still on the ground
Everyone is miles away
And I'm still stuck here
These chains around my wrists
And bars in front of me
I just want to say

Mom, Dad
Leave me alone
Set me free
Let me be what I want to be
Let me see what I want to see
Let me reach the stars
Remove these cages
I want to see the world

Mom, Dad
I'm no more a baby
Let me see what I want to see
Let me have what I want to have
Let me be what I want to be
'Cause I'm only me
I just want to be me

Mom, Dad
Leave me alone
Set me free
Let me be what I want to be
Let me see what I want to see
Let me reach the stars
Remove these cages
I want to see the world
Let me see the world

Friday, April 8, 2011

Your Lies

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You said those words again
Over and over again
Can't you see I'm hurt
Seeing you never do
Understand how much a promise can make me
Promises isn't a joke
It isn't a game
And when you said it
I meant it
So if you say those words again
I'm gonna say

Save those words for somebody else
I'm not gonna believe in them again
You think I'm stupid
But I don't think so
I'm hurt, as you can now see
Just shrug off
I don't need you
And your lies

Once again
You lied to me
Said everything
Don't you notice how I cry every night
I hate hearing you
I hate you
And your so-called bitter lies
Just go, go!
No need to say those again

Save those words for somebody else
I'm not gonna believe in them again
You think I'm stupid
But I don't think so
I'm hurt, as you can now see
Just shrug off
I don't need you
And your lies
Lies
Lies

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Places

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Primary School:
The place where I get bullied by other STUDENTS. It was the place where my nightmares came true and the place I always avoid as possible as I can, which includes running away from school and absent whenever I can.

Middle School:
The place where I get bullied and insulted by TEACHERS. Almost as worst as primary school but who cares about what teachers say, as long as my marks aren't bad.

Probably High School will be the place where I get bullied by BOTH. I so hope not. =(

School Library:
The place where I keep on complaining in my head why the books there aren't so interesting.

Book Rentals and Bookstores:
The places where I can spend hours and hours (and days probably if I don't check the time every now and then) without feeling tired. Best places ever!

At home:
The place where I can do anything--except for using Facebook, Friendster or Twitter. Those social networking sites. Ugh, wished I had one =(

Restaurants:
Places where people stare and gossip about other people. I avoid these.

Shopping Centres:
The places where I get too bored to be around.

Well, and so many other places I can't explain.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Just Wanna Be Me (song)

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There's lots of beauty out there
And lots of talent and flare
That everyone's longing to have
You are one of those stars
People are dreaming to be you
There are hoping to meet you
And you asked me why I'm not like them
And I said

Reff:
I don't need popularity
I don't need your similarity
I don't need cheers from everybody
I just wanna be-e-e-e me

People are chasing after you
They're crying to talk to you
They're calling out your name
They're jealous of your fame
And like popularity's yours to claim
They want to be the same
And you ask me why I'm not like them
And I said

Reff:
I don't need popularity
I don't need your similarity
I don't need cheers from everybody
I just wanna be-e-e-e me


(Bridge)
I am who I am
So I don't give a damn
To be what you are
I may not be smart
I may not be beautiful
I may not be pretty
I may not be perfect
But I am special just who I am now
I don't need people to bow
I may not have beauty
I may not be pretty
I may not be a cutie
But I'm happy to be me


Reff:
I don't need popularity
I don't need your similarity
I don't need cheers from everybody
I just wanna be-e-e-e me
I don't need popularity
I don't need your similarity
I don't need cheers from everybody
I just wanna be me!!!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Lost

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(this is a song I made by myself)

When the autumn leaves fall
And the orange butterflies flutter around me
I remember you
It's like I can see your hovering away
Along with the memories
Can you ever imagine
How much loss my heart has felt
Since you left and said I was just a waste of time

Reff:
Sometimes I would open my tears of memory
Praying to God things would be alright
'Cause I'm lost without you
Everything I see is like blue
And now I'm crying back memories
Praying to God things would be alright

Before you came nor left
There's no fear in me
There's nothing of this feeling in me
And now I feel lost as could be
The autumn leaves are swirling around me
And they're killing me
They're reminding me of you
However hard I try
All I can do is cry

Reff:
Sometimes I would open my tears of memory

Praying to God things would be alright
'Cause I'm lost without you
Everything I see is like blue
And now I'm crying back memories
Praying to God things would be alright


(Bridge)
I can't lock away the tears of memory I've woven
I can't runaway from the trap I've got myself into
I can't escape
And now I'm praying to God things would be alright
Things would be alright

Reff:

Sometimes I would open my tears of memory
Praying to God things would be alright
'Cause I'm lost without you
Everything I see is like blue
And now I'm crying back memories
Praying to God things would be alright

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Different

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Why do I feel stupid around you
Why do things goes slower whenever I see you
Why do I feel so stiff
Why do I feel so different

Reff: #
Different
Like a different color in the dark
Like a stone in the sand
I feel so different around you
I can't think, I can't speak
And whatever is happening
I feel so different

I don't know what's happening
Am I being crazy or is my heart being clumsy
Am I having a heart-attack
Or is it my Asthma turning up again
I don't know
But whatever it is
I feel so different

Reff: #
Different

Like a different color in the dark
Like a stone in the sand
I feel so different around you
I can't think, I can't speak
And whatever is happening
I feel so different

I feel different
So different
I don't feel like standing
I feel like flying
I don't feel like living
I feel like dying
Dying for ...

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Lonely

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I feel so lonely
Without you
Sometimes I hope
You'd come by again
And fill my lungs with air
Instead of the dead gloom
That usually hibernates in me

I feel so lonely
Would you come again someday (?)
Take me away from the darkness of death
Bring me to a whole new world (?)

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Happiness

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There are times I'm happy
And so elated like crazy
But I know
Someday soon or later
I will have to pay for it
Pay with sorrow and pain
'Cause I will never have true happiness
Like what those princesses have
I'm not like those Disney Princesses
Who can live their dreams forever and always

I'm aware
That someday something
Or someone will be taken from me
I know I will never really have true happiness
And I know someday something terrible will happen
I'm waiting for it
Waiting for it

Thursday, February 10, 2011

I Hate You

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You call yourself a teacher
But I call you a killer
You kill me from inside
And a lot of other students
Don't you even know
You killed our spirit and souls
Making them vanish from the world
Oh and I wish you knew
From the very first time
I hate you
I hate you

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Remember My Childhood

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Did you remember the cold damp grass
You sat on every dark dawn

And you watched the crows fly over the red sky

And you felt so cold without your coat on





Did you remember every 2 pm

The warm sun rays through your window

And you feel like you're gonna be young forever

You thought time pass too slow

You never realized soon you're gonna grow up





I'm not a baby anymore

I'm not small like before

Now I'm a girl ready to soar

And study the world until the core





Did you remember what your Daddy use to say

Every time you get home crying

Did you remember what your Mommy use to say

Every time you ran away from home





I'm not a baby anymore

I'm not small like before

Now I'm a girl ready to soar

And study the world until the core





Did you remember every Sunday

You sat on the car's boot with your brother

And talk about the name of the days

You said your favorite day is Saturday





Did you remember when you got your very first bike

you fell over and over 'til you cried

Daddy picked you up and wiped your tears

He said it's gonna end until you tried

You never understood then





I'm not a baby anymore

I'm not small like before

Now I'm a girl ready to soar

And study the world until the core





Did you remember your thirteenth birthday

You got a cellphone and laptop

You're like the most happiest girl in the world

You feel so lucky than anyone else in the world





Did you remember when you ran home crying

No where else is safer than home

Just remember three years before

You ran away from home

And said anywhere is better than home

It all has changed





I'm not a baby anymore

I'm not small like before

Now I'm a girl ready to soar

And study the world until the core





I'm not a baby anymore

I'm not small like before

Now I'm a girl ready to soar

And study the world until the core





I'm not a baby anymore

I'm not small like before

I feel like I could roar

And I'm wild like a boar





I'm not a baby, no more

I'm not small like before

It all has changed

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I Know

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You're pretty, I know
Thoguh you always deny it
You're prettu, I know you know it
You tried to be modest
But you should know that I could see that light
That light of pride in your eyes
So why's the point of saying you're ugly
If after that you say you're the most perfect (?)


You avoid me everyday
Act like you never know me
Act like I'm your nobody
You never say hello or my name
You're afraid you will lose your popularity
You're ashamed to have known me before
Before you entered high school
You're ashamed you have to me my friend
I know all that
You just don't know that I know


But you know you still need me
You still need my help you know that
And you think pretending to not know me
Will be a great cover-up (?)
No, 'cause everyone knows and they hate you
For being such a brat and ignoring your own friend
And you never really understood
The real meaning of friends

I know what you feel
I know you're ashamed
But why (?)
You're popular I know
But will your popularity fade if everyone know you're my friend (?)
I'm just a nerd and you're popular
It's not going to make any difference, you know
But you act like I'm nobody
Why (?)
Why (?)
Why (?)

Sunday, December 19, 2010

I'm a Ghost

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I'm a ghost
I died a week ago, in a car crash
I couldn't be saved
I just died, like that
No one could save me
Not even my parents
Not even their cries


I cried for help
My soul screamed in pain
I cried for Mother
I cried for Father
But none of them could get me back to life
I just died
My soul was ripped apart from my body
Something pulled my soul away


Now I'm here
At home, wishing someone could see me
I can see Mother and Father
I can see everything
But they can't see me
They can't hear me


I called out for Mother
I cried out for her
I cried for Father
I want him to hear me
But none of them turned to see me
None of them knew I was beside them
None of them knew I was crying
I miss them so much
I want to speak to them again
I miss them so much



I want to be heard again
I want be seen again
I want to be felt again
But no one would hear now
No one would see me now
No one could


I wish I was alive
I wish I can speak to them again
I wish wont be like this
I miss them so much
I miss them so much

Saturday, December 18, 2010

I Can't Stand It

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This is more than I can take
People may think this is all fake
People may think I'm only imagining
But it's really happening
Cruel words coming in and out
I feel like I want to shout
All this gives me pain
Pain that made me soaked in dreadful rain


People always accuse me
Of something they think is funny
As though they can make me some kind of joke
No, I'm better than an empty can of coke (!)
You know I'm hurt inside
Though I laugh and smile on the outside
So why are you all still making fun of me
As is I'm a little bouncing bunny (?)

Friday, December 17, 2010

If Only ...

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If only I could play-back time
Change all the sadness into happiness
Weave my own world
And leave the gloomness ...

If only I could make it
If only I could do everything to make things better
If only I had known everything would be like this ...

If only people can see what I am inside
If only people don't care about how I look
If only people could see the light inside me
I could be a somewhat better person
Than what I am today

If only I could be someone else
If only I could see the beauty of life just once in a while
If only I hadn't had to be me ...

Just ...
If only ...
If only I could be something better

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

HORRIBLE

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Hi...

,,this day has been like living hell and I HATE it!!! There's someone at school who mocked me and my father and of course I just couldn't take that! So now I'm ignoring him and I'm going to treat him like germs in my socks. I hate how he acts like all those words he said was just a joke and nothing. I hate how he laughed at me when I said this was not a joke. Okay, I'm going to treat him like scum until he apologize...well maybe he wont but I don't care. I don't like being mocked and that's FINAL!!!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Your Jokes

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It was a rainy, stormy day
When you took me in and said
You're my counselor teacher and hey,
I can confide you in anything
I thought I'd trust you then
But know I know I was wrong


It was only a minute until I realize
You're not the type of person I should trust
You spread my secrets to the whole school
It was only a week and the whole city had known
Don't you know how my little heart feels (?)


Maybe you thought it was a joke
A joke you played on a thirteen year-old
But it's not very funny for a little girl like me
You should have known what I can make you be
You should have known revenge is much more crueller than the first act


You can laugh your head off now
But in a minute I'll make you bow
Bow so low 'cause you regret what you've done
Go on, laugh and laugh
you never really understand a little girl's heart
All you know is cruel jokes and laughs
Well what if i made a joke about you (?)
Telling the whole world you're just another person from the wrong planet (?)


I know you wouldn't like that
You'd get me expelled right away
But why can't you see you've treated me that way
Treating me like a doll day by day
Oh I hope it's May
Where I could have my exams and leave
Leave you and never look back


You said I owe you respect
But you know you owe me an apologize
For the jokes you thought was funny
For the stuff you'd spread to the world
Hey lady, you know, words are the most cruellest thing on earth
And guess what
You made me regret my own birth (!)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

I'm Not Your Friend

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I know you're not blind
I know your body isn't in bind
But why wouldn't you even mind

That's still little
I'm not born to be tortured
I'm not born to be taunted
I'm not born for you to torment
But you still set up those traps


I'm not a robber
But you're making me want to die faster
It's like I can't take it any longer
And you're making my life harder


Could you just stop
You should know I'm gonna explode
If you wont stop all this nonsense
Maybe I'll just shred away my existance


Is this funny
No, it's ruddy
And remember I'm not your buddy
Who would make your world much more friendly


Coz you're not good to me
Not even friendly to me
And you hope that I will be
Someone who would let you free (?)

Can I Just Leave (?)

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The sky has darkened
And the clouds had gone
The sun is hidden
And the sorrowness is all over
All over my mind


Can I just leave
And live on my own
Forget the words they say
And rule my own world
And say I'll never look back
Never look back


I'm a puzzeled little girl
Sitting alone in the darkness
And somehow for four years
Light hasn't turned up
And here all I am
No rainbow to see
No sun to see


Can I just leave

And live on my own
Forget the words they say
And rule my own world
And say I'll never look back
Never look back



You know I'm innocent
You know I know nothing
You know I've done nothing (!)
But why are you still accusing me
You're still saying I'm wrong
It's as if you're blind
As if you can't see all those truth
That I have given you
It's liek you can't see
The big lies others have woven
And you chose to believe the whispers
Instead of the shouts my heart has let out


Why have you done this
Trapping me between the right and wrong
When I'm clearly right, and you're wrong
Why can't you just accept defeat (?)
Why can't you see my friends that stand up to you
Why can't you see my friends defending me
Why can't you see all the truth I've written on this paper
Why can't you see the truth my friends say
Why can you only point and say
Why can't you try to know
Why do you have to be so hard and mean
Why...why...why can't you just leave me in peace
The way I have come in here (?)


Can I just leave

And live on my own
Forget the words they say
And rule my own world
And say I'll never look back
Never look back


Why have you been so blind
Why have you blabbed about the stuff that's wrong
Why have you out all the blame on me
Why do you have to be mean...
When you're a counselor
When you're supposed to understand me
But you don't


All you do is point and say
Point and say and blame
Point, say, blame and interrogate
Is this all funny to you
Is this all a joke to you
Is this all just a laugh
Is this all just the kinda of joke you like
Assaulting and blaming and accusing
Is this all the joke you meant
The joke that you have meant for me
The kind of joke that;s not funny


Why can't you see
I'm deep in depression
Deep in the darkness you've set
You've said all the things to keep me down
And why wont you just stop
Why wont you just realize and accept
You've got the wrong person at hand
You've got the wrong person...
And why are you still acting like you're right (?)
Like you're most right and perfect
Like I can't do anything to go against you



Can I just leave

And live on my own
Forget the words they say
And rule my own world
And say I'll never look back
Never look back


Have you seen the darkness you've set
How it's too dark for me
How it's too dark for a thirteen year-old
How it's too thick for me to get through
How it's too thick to see through
And have you seen the world you've changed
You've changed my world
you've woven me a new world
Where I'm blind and all I can see is darkness
And it's like you don't care (!)
You don't see what I'm crying behind your big ignorant back
I'm crying blood, if you would mind (!)
I'm crying all the blood I've got
And you never do really care
All you do is fake-smile and turn away
Leaving me here, like a small ant meeting death
Like a small death means nothing to you
Like the death of my heart means so little to you
It's like you're blind...



Can I just leave
And live on my own
Forget the words they say
And rule my own world
And say I'll never look back
Never look back


Can I just leave
And get my own world
Leave the things you've said to me
Leave the jokes you thought funny
Leave the silly webs you've woven for me
Can I just leave (!)
Leave you with your pride
Leave you forever
Can I just leave you


I want to see you drop back
I want to see you feel
The broken heart I've suffered
From your jokes, lady
I'm not scared of you
I'm not afraid of what you can do
'Cause I can do better than you
'Cause I don't gossip like you do (!)


Now, leave me alone
You may be an adult
And the one who's powerful at school
But here in my world
I don't see you as someone honored
I don't see you with your honor
All I see is your sharp tongue and slippery lips
Your cruel and selfish gleam in your eyes
And let me say this again
In my world you're no one


So can I just leave
The stuff you've set for me
The joke you played on me
The assaults you've played on me
The taunts you've said to me
'Cause I don't want to care anymore
Never care anymore


Can I just leave this world
And live on my own
Build my own world
And forget all you've done...

Friday, December 3, 2010

Dear Friends on the Other Side of the World...

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Dear Friends,
                    My life has gone too far hard. It isn't working out on me like it should and I'm feeling very depressed. I just turned 13 and as I have figured it out, the ways of life that had been clear if now foggy, and the steps that are steady now are full of rocks. Can't you all help me? Solve me this problem, please... I can't die living this up!!! I have to suvive...but will I??? I don't know.
   The adults at school are being really hard on me, taking me as the girl-who-is-wrong, but I did nothing. They told EVERYONE that I'm just a liar and all I do in class is being a chatterbox. But I didn't even talked!!! I sat quiet like a statue but the teachers mistook me for my friend and I've got all the blame. The teachers now gossip about me like it's a great big thing to do, when it's NOT. They should have known better than to do that. I mean...they're gonna end up wrong and red, believe me.



Love,


The Sad Girl

Hard Life

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How horrid the people these days...
How horrid they are!!!
And it's all on me!!!
The blame is all on me!!!
It's like I've gone all wrong!!!
But is wasn't me who'd done all those stuff!!!
It wasn't me!!!
And the just wont believe me...
It's like they're all blind of those truth in front of them
It's like everything in their eyes are dim...
Oh please, help me!!!
What have I done??
I just sat quiet in the corner and suddenly...

It was like...a disaster!!!
Just because of ONE girl in class...
I've got all the blame that should lay on HER,
And not ME...


Yes, now I've seen everything clearly
Being 13 is like being stuck in the mud
No one can take you out except yourself
But it's impossible....

Impossible...
So impossible...

So how am I supposed to do it???

Saturday, November 27, 2010

I'm 13 NOW!!!

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Dear Diary,
                 I've turned 13 today and I think it's great!!! I mean...I've been waiting to get to this age and it's actually happened!!! Yes...ummm, but people say being a 13 year-old isn't so much fun... Is it really? They say it's the age of horror and terror...really? I didn't mean horror like ghosts or somewhat, I meant like people avoiding you, getting bullied and stuff. I hope not.
   Coz I've been bullied since grade 3 and if 13 is the age of those stuff, it means my life is going to get much worser...oh God, I hope not! So okay, today I woke up very late, at six! Usually I got up at 4:30!!! Oh my... I didn't go out after I woke up, though. I stayed in bed and started texting my friends good morning, and then I read a bit of my favorite books. For about 5 minutes...then my mother called me to get out, it's so late, so I got out of the room and my mother said Happy Birthday to me. Then I went to the kitchen and my father said Happy Birthday to me too.
   And then I sat at the table, feeling so mixed up. After getting kinda bored looking at the pancakes in front of me (my mother had told me to eat some but I didn't) I went back to my room and texted my friends again... hahahaha.


,,yeah today's been kinda boring, it's like it's not my birthday.


Okay then,
Lots of love from me,



Fadhilah

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Being Accused for Something Ain't Fun

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I don't know what happened...
I didn't know what happened...
I just bumped into it and it seems like...hell?

Yes, it does. I don't know how it came out, and suddenly rumors and gossips about me had spread through out the school so quickly like ants...
And it was so shocking to find out the the one who made those rumors was my own teacher...
it hurts me so much...


She did that coz she hates me outdoing the other people, ever her. I mean, I've been abroad and...well...she though it was funny to make other people think I behave badly
Even those rumors reached my old school and I was totally shocked...


the people at my old school interogated me as if I'm a criminal and I said No, no, no, all the time but they didn't believe it...


now I don't trust anybody, not even the Councelling Teacher at school coz now I know teachers love to gossip. I can't trust anybody anymore and that's final...


:(


For the first time in my life, I realized...teachers aren't so helpful...they can be enemies...


Enemies that spread rumors and bad gossips about myself that can make other people turn away from me

Thursday, October 28, 2010

MC

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Well well well,
What have got here?
A ragged little girl! Hahahha! Yeah, me! uM... really?


,,Hello guyz,

hahahhaHa, I'm back noW!!!

So, how's life around you all? Around me? Not that great really. TERRIBLY TERRIBLE!


Yeah...isn't that so cool? Ugh,..

No.


GuyZ....I really need your help.

I'm gonna be a MC for a Story-Telling Contest,

And I'm not confident at all...could you PLEASE help me?

Anything! You can give me suggestion, you know, or comments and stuff...
Hahahahaha,, hehehehe please GUYS???
You're great! So please help me.


guYs? Hehehhehehe...being a little disturbed here...

,,

..


.
.
.
....

hahahhaa,,

Well? Give me suggestions, tell me what you think.

Today...is not so great. I had to practice to be a MC...that isn't so fun yeah,,
And well...today my friend got REALLY mad at a boy in my class,,

She swore about THREE times!!! Cool? Huh? Not really but yeah,
it happened, so what?

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

O-oH!!! Trouble Coming Up!!!

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Woo! Trouble!!! Yeah, why am I always getting into trouble for nothing?

,,that sucks you know...


   The matter is, I did nothing! I didn't do anything and then I got a scolding,,
from a senior! That really is annoying...

   Yeah, she accused me for backbiting on her, but I DIDN'T...that really is silly...
   I was just joking with my friend, and then she came over and said that I shouldn't backbite! But hey, I didn't backbite! Silly,,


...strange girl...




Really annoying...troubles up! Yeah,,



she didn't get to scold me loudly and hard coz there was a teacher,
but what if there was no teacher? I'll probably be a pulp!


Well, get ready for a tough day tomorrow! Oh my GOD...real freaky!

,,


I'm always into trouble with the wrong people! That is SO annoying! Hear that? Annoying,,



which means...


...,


,,

I don't like IT!

Woo, and you know what? I love some of Westlife's songs...


Hahahahahaha,, kinda funny.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

These Days

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,,hmm...



,,The days...are getting quicker,,



...

and slightly harder and tougher...



,,



is this something?

,,Is this a sign??



....




Does this mean something?

,,is anything gonna happen here??





I don't know....



,,


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...



being kinda silly here...


So please guys...could you help me??



Oh please??
PleasE??

comment

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Bad Mood

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GRRRRRRR!!!!


Why am I always angry? Because....there's someone that made me!!! Well, isn't that so obvious???

,,hmmm??? So?

Am I happy today? No.
Yesterday? No


Once in my life? Ummm.....I don't care...


Sorry guys, for being so crazy today,, you know, like talking to nobody and making sarcastic comments...

You haven't done anything wrong...



I was just being mad,,
In a bad mood ya know...


REAL bad mood I mean,, yeah!



Hmmm? So... please guyz,,
Comment! Why don't you comment?



Because my writing isn't worth a comment?
Okay...fine




but will you please give me some suggestions so my writing can be better??

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

HulLO

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Hi...sorry I haven't been on for so LONG!!!


Yeah, I've got my exams...they're so hard...like rocks. Hahahha, yeah, you would cry in dismay if you see them...they're like...ugh!!!!

Ewww....you know, too hard!!! Too hard to explain I mean...


The hardest was Algebra...then Chemistry...


And anyway, who on earth loves Chemistry? Maybe only Professor Snape from Hp...that's all!!!

Yeah...yeah!


And today I was involved in a fight...
Real annoying really...


That person who always mock me!!!



*huffs*


Well, then! No more interesting things to be told!!


Good bye,,



Good day to you all!